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Me in 10 Years – Astrology Reading

Daily writing prompt
Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
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I decided to conduct an astrology reading for this prompt. The techniques I used are Solar Return (2034-2035), and Secondary Progression, which are the most popular and commonly used ones in such readings 🙂 I should probably add that, honestly speaking, I hate performing such kind of analyses for myself because I become biased. But I really want to accentuate one of the main topics of my blog 🙂

Let’s go:

The first thing I noticed, is the fact that this will be a year of a certain success because Jupiter (progression) and Saturn (Solar Return) are in the 10th house (success). In both cases, the planet that happens to be in the 10th House is the Ruler of IC, which means that this success won’t be purely materialistic. Instead, it’s more likely that my inner, most cherished emotionally dreams will come true.

Could it mean that I will be published? It actually could, for I notice that transiting Jupiter is in the 5th House (creativity), progressed Venus is strong, in her own sign, and in exact conjunction with my natal Mercury (beautiful, creative writing). The Solar Ascendant is in Libra, another sign ruled by Venus, the planet of creativity. There are plenty of quintiles which are a so-called creative aspects. Progressive MC is in Virgo (ruled by Mercury=writing), in a decan ruled by Venus (again). Air signs are heavily accentuated in this Solar Return, and plenty of water element in progression, which is also a good sign for creativity.

What else? A favorable year for metaphysical and occult development and fulfillment. It will be also an excellent time for the deep emotional and spiritual transformation, as there are great number of Pluto aspects, a stellium in the 8th&9th House of Solar Return, and even the horoscope Ruler is in these Houses.

Another intriguing detail is overall emphasis on the roots of emotions and changes connected to this (Cancer Moon, Moon, Jupiter and Pluto in the 4th House, double Moon-IC conjunction in Solar Return). Could it be full remission? Such a nice Venus in the 6th House (health) can also confirm getting cured.

Apart from the emotional and occult world, this indicates great devotion toward family, being deeply involved in the life of the close ones, being a good wife (also stellium in the 7th House) and possibly a mom (Jupiter in the 5 House denotes not only popularity in creative activities, but finding joy and giving support to your children, for they are also the act of creation). There will be also major changes in my family life or house-related matters (Moon and Pluto signify change). I’m not sure, though, if it’s an addition to family, or just moving to a bigger House (Jupiter).

I often heard that this is the year when I should be very careful about my life (high risk of death). As I see from Solar Return, Progression and transits, there can be something challenging going on (but interestingly, not in terms of heath). This can be deduced from the emphasis on the 8th House (which also signifies death) and the transiting Pluto squaring my natal Sun, but I believe that it’s just an advice from the planets to be careful. It is not a fate, but the matter of choice.

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False Memories (Part 2)

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Part 4

DISCLAIMER: the events and the characters mentioned in this story are the product of the author’s imagination

And all of a sudden, the alarm went off. I was so astonished I sat up straight in an instant, looking around with incredulity: I was home! Could it all have been just a vivid nightmare then? Somehow, I seriously doubted that. I didn’t remember going to sleep; quite the opposite, I could perfectly recall every bitter detail of yesterday’s quarrel. I sneezed – exactly. I also had no doubts that I was drenched by rain while parading the night streets in shorts and unzipped. Still, I was in my bed, in pajamas, my yesterday’s clothes hanging on the chairs’ back. 

In addition to all that, I got a splitting headache. The light – even this murky tender morning light which happens only right before dawn – seemed to be dazzling. I was completely disoriented. I stood up with a moan, and the whole world became blurred and shaky. Besides, my feet were still in pain. I sat down again.

The light was a problem here; I knew that it somehow affected the way I feel, so I decided to pull down the curtains and think. My eyesight was distorted; I couldn’t look directly at any object: my headache immediately returned magnified one thousand times. So I closed my eyes and started retracing yesterday’s walk, or rather my escape from home. 

First and foremost – we quarreled. Two adult sisters living together is… hm, a challenging task. If only we had enough money and the place we could go we’d leave each other immediately. But as for now, we had neither choice, nor sources. 

We were so different: She and I. Martha was brave and charismatic, always the center of attention. The awareness of that made Her addicted to the admiration of the crowd. My Sister spent all Her time on social media, impressing the public with retouched selfies and generated quotes, forgetting that these were fabricated lies that had little to do with her real self.

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False Memories (Part 1)

Part 2
Part 3
Part 4

DISCLAIMER: the events and the characters mentioned in this story are the product of the author’s imagination

I guess it all began the moment I slammed the door loudly, causing the tiny rivers and streams of stone dust and chalk to run down onto the floor. I quickly scrutinized the tiny crevices and cracks around the doorframe – eternal remnants of my mood swings and our bitter quarrels… I ran down the steps diving into the silver moonlight that stole all the colors of this world except for black and white… 

I could discern the catlike silhouettes in the silver slits of windows. All the voices from different flats were mixed and united in one preaching chorus, and all the graffities and scribbles that casually adorned the staircase during the day now were turned into magical patterns and figures. Like cavemen, we continue on and on to mark our achievements, wishes and feelings, etching them deep into the wall.

The entrance door swung open, welcoming the wet, damp wind to fill the darkness. A few rare cool drops of rain fell on my face, mingling and mixing with tears, calming me, reviving and suddenly filling everything with a sense of hope again. I went out, looking up at the sky and breathing deeply, trying to regain composure. My jacket was unzipped carelessly, my strides were long and bold… It was an attempt to become one with the wind, one with the coming storm, to cast off all formalities, reject the laws of physics, and fly over the earth in elemental fury.

A burning array of yellow windows was outlined brightly against the gray carcasses of the buildings, almost indiscernible in the surrounding darkness… I wish I could say the same about the drunken crowd of people, who were shouting and cursing loudly, while checking out the surroundings with an immense hunger for destruction. So I halted for a moment, praying to become invisible. 

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A dream – debts (05.06.2023)

Just a “nice” dream in which I walked through my grandmother’s native town, I don’t really remember the setting, it was smeared simply on the tissue of this dream. Suddenly I was taken by hand and walked to the bank, where the middle-aged woman with a very kind and sweet face told me that my mother and great grandmother had/have terrible debts and a myriad of loans in this bank and I should pay for them. The woman went into another room, and I followed her. There was a large swimming pool and we sat on the plastic chairs observing the pool from above. “I’m so sorry, – the woman sighed looking at me and hugged my shoulders. – So sad you must pay that, it is not even your fault.” When I went out the bank I ran into my mother on the street. I told her about the debts and she just shrugged. She didn’t care, and wasn’t going to help me.

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The good he’s done for me

Positive things from family… In my life I was endowed by quite a complicated family, the majority of members of which were manipulative, controlling and toxic. That caused some problems with which I struggled as a child and still struggle as an adult. Life is complicated and so am I, as I’m its reflection, so I had no choice but to cut several family cords just in order to help my mental health in order. But I won’t write more details about them now.

My grandfather was a wonderful man, empathetic, loving and kind. He had a big heart and was fond of us all. I never realized how much his influence shaped me: he was always so warm and supportive. He gave me love and opportunities to learn and to travel. It was always him who connected our constantly quarreling family. It is because of him I am where I am now.

He passed away so suddenly, just before his birthday. By some twisted irony it was the last time when he reconnected our family and mended ruined relationships. Sadly, for this restoration to happen his death was required. I couldn’t attend his funeral, which is really sad, but he is forever in my heart: recently I started to remember myriad little conversations and events connected to him, suddenly understanding that it was him, who taught me empathy, search of different perspectives on the religion and love for sci-fi: we talked a lot about space, planets and stars, so maybe my love for astrology is also rooted there…

I miss him, as does all of our family, and most of all my grandma, of course. Not so long ago I talked to my psychotherapist, and during the session she assumed that I must have received love and support from someone in my childhood and I just knew who it was. And this is the main positive thing among all he has done for me: he loved me, he supported me, he believed in me. And I’m endlessly grateful for that, and I miss him. Before his death he told my grandmother: I tried to help them all the best I could…

You helped a lot. Thank you.

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Being myself and adulthood

Sad, but I’m not able to earn money with my passion: I’m not the type of a person who may become prosperous on social media, or who may trade her individuality to be liked or to earn more. I hate to be an advertisement to sell. I hate myself when I’m trying to sell something that almost defines my life, that it is worthy and wonderful. And I only can sell it, coating it with sugar, whipped cream and golden sprinkles and they buy it only because they want golden sprinkles, and only because it’s on sale. Those golden sprinkles btw have nothing in common with what constitutes my passion, though… Whatever. Probably doing that I feel like an Italian, who sits somewhere in America (just analogy, probably not so very accurate) around the students and has to eat these macaroni with ketchup and cheddar cheese. And they ask him:”oooh, this is what you eat in Italy, right?”

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Shadow Path (part 1)

Parts:
1st part;
2nd part;
3d part;
4th part;
5th part

*Anima: soul (the meaning which was chosen by me for this story)

**Leo: (in astrology) the sign where the Sun is domiciled (Sun is the ruler there and it is strong). Leo and the Sun stand for the Ego and can symbolize utter selfishness at the low level of self-development (primitiveness).

‘To sleep, to dream, to dive into the depth of the endless ocean which hides millions of barely existing realities on the brim of your imagination. When you fall asleep, the warmth and softness surround you, lulling and carrying you to the void, to the darkest darkness where you do not exist anymore, where you feel pain no more, and where you are unified with the Universe. And then you find yourself diving into the utmost depth of the boundless ocean, where you become whole, accepted, and never alone. You sway in its waters and get carried away by its currents to all existing memories, hopes, causes, outcomes, futures, pasts, presents –  all possible variations of time. You can choose your favorite one… Why does anyone even want to wake up?

Sure, there are nightmares, but reality is also full of them, isn’t it? There are dark sides in every possible representation of infinity; otherwise nothing could be compound, complicated and mysterious, definitely not as intriguingly contrastive as any crowd would like. Though, in comparison with reality, our dreams are more subtle. Everything moves and shifts its shape like a fog, or like a cloud: now you see a forest, and than it turns out to be a castle, and later perhaps a ship, or isn’t it the old man’s bald head? Strange. But so vague, dynamic and playful. You can discover all the answers and the hints in your dreams; all kinds of knowledge: spiritual, psychological, or occult. Everything may reveal itself before you when you are open and sensitive enough – I am. I love to sleep. I live to sleep. I’d die…’

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Child of Earth and Fire

I’ve asked my friend for an opportunity to share my analyses of her natal chart in my blog, and she agreed 😀 It is very general analyses and to be honest I do it after a break in interpretations, still I’m very excited about doing it 🙂 So, if you love reading astrological interpretations you are welcome and please enjoy! 🙂

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Firstly, it’s important to notice that we see the chart with the dominance of Earth and Fire elements which give this person ambitious, self-assured character that is aimed to achieve success or perform a great work here on Earth (also emphasized by stellium in Capricorn), on spiritual or material plane and loads of energy and diligence will help her in this task. Additionally, this is a chart of the individualist, as the majority of her planets are gathered at the left hemisphere. It is a very strong character and very assertive. She will trust mainly herself and her vision, and will act according to her wishes, not because of her attachments or friends/family’s opinions.

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Sense of Life and my Reflections

At the very beginning I’ll ask you to remember that I am not a Guru, a spiritual teacher, a famous philosopher, a prophet, a scientist or any other kind of intellectual authority. In this post I just want to share how I see it, it is not a Bible.

“Is there any sense in our existence?” we often wonder looking at the sky, trying to find some guidance from above, or, perhaps, reading the messages from the stars. Actually, it is the main reason why we have created astrology, divination and occultism, why we felt and discovered the Divine presence and invented religions, philosophy, and finally a number of sciences, which tell us what is what on the physical plane. One may say: “it is the defining feature of human beings: we should find and see sense in reality”.

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